Friendship

I have joined a group of other 5th grade moms from my kids' school in a Book Club.  We met last week and decided that we would read Unglued by Lysa TerKeurst.  Honestly, it wasn't my first choice, but as I read it, maybe it should have been!

As I picked up the book this morning and began to read about a mother that would occassionally "explode" on her kids about stupid little things, I began to think, "I used to do that.  BUT I have it under control now."  I felt like "I don't need this book.  Why did we choose this one?"  But then I heard it.  That voice.  That thought.  I knew what it was.  God was opening my eyes.  He was begging me to listen to what the author had to say.  I wanted to reply with "This is for someone else."  but it wasn't.  It was for me.

You see the book is about controlling yourself amidst raw emotion.  (Head hanging low)  Wow!  I do need this.

I feel like I have gotten myself under much more control than I used to.  Just maturing and growing up will do that I guess.  I have a successful marriage and kids that are (usually) very well behaved.  From the outside I have it all together.

But as I analyze my past, I notice one thing.  My friends are never the same from season to season.  Each big event in my life has a different friend standing by my side.

Now honestly, I have always considered my husband and my mom to be my two best friends, but a girl can never have too many friends right?  Right?  Right?  (I don't know the answer to that)

So I look at my friendships of the past and try to figure out what happened to each of those relationships.  Yes, some just drifted away as our lives changed but some stories are different.  Some stories end in big explosive discord.  Hurt.  Anger.  Embarrassment.  Shame.  Loss.  What happened?  What went wrong?  Was it me?  Was it them?  I don't know, but I am anxious to dig deep into this book to see what the author has to say about these situations.

But I do want to hear your take on this.....
Is it possible to have life-long deep friendship with numerous people?
Is it better to have many surface friends or a few deep friendships?
What do you think?